warmed-over soapboxes » death http://chelseywaters.com/soapbox clever would be nice Thu, 05 Apr 2012 18:20:11 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.2.1 On death http://chelseywaters.com/soapbox/2009/12/on-death/ http://chelseywaters.com/soapbox/2009/12/on-death/#comments Sat, 05 Dec 2009 06:43:13 +0000 Chelsey http://chelseywaters.com/soapbox/?p=1491 Today a high school friend of mine died of breast cancer. She was 30, I think. Close to my age. She leaves a husband and three boys, and friends and family who watched her chronicle the end of her life on Facebook.

I wasn’t very close to her — we lost touch after high school –  so I hesitate to say something that will upset anyone. Yet I’ve been sitting here for an hour since I found out, trying to remember how I’ve rationalized others’ deaths in order to understand this one. But that’s what’s bothering me: rationalizing is like putting round pegs in square holes and thinking that as long as the pegs don’t fall out, they must fit; in short, it often makes sense just to the person twisting logic to fit the situation.

Maybe it’s just me, but every time a friend or relative dies, the choice between faith and reason becomes all the more clear. And I just don’t think I can choose faith anymore. I quit believing in miracles a long time ago, and now I don’t really see the point of loving a god who does nothing.

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